I think I've lost my mind!

So...... I think I've lost my mind....no, really....I'm not joking....I think it's finally happened and I've snapped....maybe never to return!

I think I'm going to try to buy my first house!  I've gone all this time renting....why now?  Why do I have to be a grown up now?  Why do houses cost so much?  Why are all the cheap one's crap....or in a not so great area....or both? Why can't my perfect house just fit perfectly in my price range and magically appear for me?  And, why do I drive so far to work?

Of course, the answer to that last question is easy.  Because I love my workplace and my co-workers and I love living in Forney.  Let's face it, my parents, my kids, and friends are there.  If only I could just get my little sister to move back I'd have it made. :)

I know some might think it strange that I'm as old as I am (40 something) and I've never bought a house.  But I've always lived in the "what if" world.  What if I change my mind?  What if I get re-married?  What if, what if, what if.  Maybe I have a commitment problem...but I think it's just called being scared.  Scared to spend that much money on something, scared of all the unknowns. OR....maybe I've just always been crazy!  Who knows?!

So, here's to being crazy and trying to buy a house.  Hopefully, I won't lose ALL my hair!  

**By the way....the search is on!  Looked at 3 last night.  Wish me luck!